Well how can I desribe myself?

I am nearly 40 and to be honest not looking forward to it. I am a small single woman of 5'1". Brown hair and eyes, fairly athletic build although I always believe I am overweight even though I vary between 7 1/2 to 8 1/2 stone. I don't think I'm attractive and to be honest most of the time I see myself as an unpopular person that people feel easy to think poorly of or alay blame. I have had the same job since really I left school and have really spent the last 20 years or so achieving nothing, yes I did get promoted at the age of 23 but nothing since then but a trail of bad experiences that left me suffering from depression and stress and to this day still on medication.

I have never married and probably never will, I am not the type of person that people are attracted to. I have three nephews who I really love, I enjoy spending time with them. I suppose they satisfy my maternal instinct as well as my spirit of adventure.

In years gone passed I have tried to develop opportunities to move into different career areas. I took on a post following interview as a Detached Youth Worker, it went great for a time until a colleague started making life difficult for me and saying unfair and untrue things to my line manager. My line manager sided with her and it was only when she left that other staff members spoke out against her but it was too late really, my line manager made a half hearted apology to me but the damaged had been done. Later when things got worse and I couldn't take anymore I resigned.